“I Am myself
separated from you.
And that may be
the beginning of the end
Or
The beginning of
the beginning”
Interesting
statement there… I pondered over it and find that a lot can be taken from this
simple composition of words. At first my overall view of this was that a sense
of independence, for lack of a better word, was the first step in determining
where relationships, outside of those you had within yourself, would be
directed/ or would go….
Guess
this morning; it became apparent to me that as shallow as these words were
taken … they were far more profound…
Sometimes
the people in our lives are a refuge… a warm safe place for us to escape all
the other ugly things in this world…. A place we perceive as a place of
safety... maybe even as the ideal place… our Eden…our nourishment, a place of
fruitfulness, of sunshine and dare I say, a place in which we resume who we
once were… a breed of people unashamed of how naked we are…bare… without fear
of who may peek over… because we dwell with the rib of our rib… one who’s heart
we daily endeavour to understand…to cradle ours within its warmth… who’s faults
we accept and actually begin to fully grasp as times scars in them… a paradise
of some sort where we rule by nature… and are actually listened to…
And
in us… we reserve a special place… a volatile and delicate part of us that
threatens to be our downfall… but still in the knowledge of that notion… we
trust that our ‘escape’ will not INTENTIONALLY… funny how we can easily forgive
in this part, when we believe it was really not by intention that we landed in
the firing line… blooded and tending to a wound those far from us would dare
not inflict….i digress…we trust that our ‘escape’ will not hurt us
Intentionally hurt us…
See
how I intentionally used ’not’ and not ‘never’… even though within ourselves we
never want to admit the knowledge of the impending gebeurtenes… hello education
system of S.A… its always there…
“I AM MYSELF SEPARATED FROM YOU”… An
intrepid realisation…” It Is Not The People Around Us Who Make Us”… so many
people tend to refer to people as ‘their better halves’ or sterlingly say ‘you
complete me’… how?, when they have yet to even reach the point of their being,
by realizing that one can’t fill that which must first create a glass…(because
we are that fragile, just one drop is enough)… to be filled?
Let’s
vy with an example… See the general problem with people who are in a certain
city/place, is that they don’t tend to see the beauty in the city/place they’re
in. They never understand why others find their abode a pleasant sight to
behold…people come to marvel at this mundane place... yet evidence of its
reality really just bores the heck out of the nomads of the place… why?... It
stems mostly from the fact that what you’ve had for long, what you’ve been
around, what has become a comfort zone for too long passes through the needle
of ‘habit’ and depreciates in value at the introduction of something else,
something new…something borrowed…
Like
Eden, the true one,… a new and foreign piece of instruction sprouts,
tantalizing all sense… and its unfathomed paths just entice your trudging… But
following the story… bottom line is we still want for Eden… we long for a place
better than the rest of Earth… The Jews longed for Canaan, the Rastafarian long
for Zion, the Hindu/Muslim still long for Mecca and Christians, the New
Jerusalem… these are all spiritual places… place one finds within themselves…
for themselves… and that is the point…
“YOU ARE YOUR OWN EDEN… AND THAT IS THE
BEGINNING OR THE END”... who you are, what you find out about yourself, how
you see things, how you experience things is the Eden you look for elsewhere…
Proverbs
4:23 “Above all else, guard the affections of your heart, the emotional
attachments you make determine the course of your life.”…
Who you are is found
within yourself… at what esteem you hold yourself at… What you’ve built
yourself up as… whether extensive of te not… without/separated from whomever
you may consider, at any point, whether your rents, friends or current ‘escape’...
will either be the life or death you experience when they depart/
leave/separate from you…
We
constantly are told that how you visualize yourself is how you unconsciously
teach others to value you… plenty of examples… when you see yourself as worthless,
your insecurity is displayed to the world and most… let’s give humanity the
benefit of the doubt… people in your life treat you as the gum stuck beneath
their shoes… that is the beginning of the end… because for all your life… your
truth will be that you are worthless… and thus undeserving of the joys and
successes of life… I Am myself separated
from you… means exactly that…
Nobody can change things for you but
yourself… because although ‘with you’ I may be cloaked, covered or masked…
‘when you leave’ (obviously with what you came with/ brought into this)… I go
back to being myself… bare…
And that may be
the beginning of the end
Or
The beginning of
the beginning
Guard
your heart… who you are without other people determines your success, extent of
joy, peace, confidence, hope, adventure and wellbeing… and that… IS LIFE, The Alpha of all things… or
the extent of your sadness, failure, pain and hopelessness…The Omega…DEATH... so in essence, this statement rounded up says;
“WHO YOU ARE WHEN THEY ALL LEAVE, IS THE REASON FOR THE SHAPE AND DIRECTION
THAT YOUR LIFE AND RELATIONSHIPS ARE TAKING… SO TO DETACH FROM OTHER PEOPLE,
SOMETIMES, IS TO GROW WITHIN YOURSELF... TO DEPEND A LOT LESS ON OTHERS IS TO
GROW A LOT MORE IN YOUR OWN EDEN”…. Hope my point was made.. And clearly so
“I Am myself
separated from you.
And that may be
the beginning of the end
Or
The beginning of
the beginning”
Kuishi
na Kujifunza… Live and Learn…
-
And
Consider it pure Joy
